Life as I knew it was turned on its head approximately ten months ago. The reason? The arrival of my first child, my little girl named Sofia. Pre-Sofia, I had a lot of hobbies. I liked to take photographs and fart around with them on photoshop. I liked interior decorating, thrifting, scrapbooking, trying to teach myself to sew and crochet. I liked gardening, cycling, horse riding, listening to my vinyl records on my £1.00 car boot record player. I liked to print photographs of my friends and family and arrange them in cool displays all over my house. I especially liked spending times with my friends drinking alcohol. I liked going shopping with my boyfriend and out for meals. I liked doing my nails and pampering myself.
Life was sweet. I so naively thought that I would still be able to enjoy all of those things, with my little bean in tow. Sure, I wouldn't be able to do them
as much, but still, there would be time. I wouldn't be working five days a week, after all. That was my biggest time killer. Surely a baby wasn't as time consuming as work. Friends and colleagues told me it wouldn't be so. I dismissed their warnings. It would be different for me. I'm
organised. I could do it.
I was wrong. So very wrong! Little Miss came barrelling into our world almost bang on time, after a very fast 1.5 hour labour that surprised everyone (midwives included) except me. If they would have only
listened when I told them how sore my contractions were... But I digress, thats another story... As I was saying, I was dead wrong. Those first few hazy newborn weeks were the biggest shock to my system I have ever encountered. I couldn't (and still quite can't) get over how time consuming and emotionally draining a tiny baby is.
And now, here we are, and this week she turns ten months old. Ten. Months. Old. How did that happen? Where did the time go? I can't believe how very fast time flies. And here I sit, at my beloved iMac, so very little used these days, and I am writing a blog. A real life blog. Can we all pause for a second to celebrate the fact that I HAVE TIME TO WRITE A BLOG! Well, I do if you ignore the huge pile of washing, the mess of my house, the dust bunnies and the junk that needs selling...
Slowly, slowly but surely, I am finding the time to be me again. Not just Sofia's mama. Do not get me wrong, I wouldn't change a single thing about the past ten months, and have never wished to. I wanted a baby so very badly, even before she was conceived, and I am crazy and utterly in love with her. I just could never have imagined how all-consuming she would be. And that's ok. But now, things are different, and I want to make some changes. She's growing fast and I am desperate to start recording things. I snap away on the iPhone camera often, and I even pull out the big Nikon at times (much less than I imagined I would, pre-baby!) But my yearly photo books are so very behind, and so much is happening... She changes so much and does the cutest things, and I just want to wrap it all up and remember it forever.
So herein lies the purpose of my blog. Life with Sofia. The good, the bad and the ugly. Picture heavy, gushing galore, just a mama writing about her baby, making the memories last, and showing her off.
Ten months ago, my life was changed completely, forever. Sofia, you beautiful creature, I love you. From the moment you were born, you have been everything I ever dreamed of having in a baby. Our story starts here, little girl. Love, your ever doting Mama.
Yes, there's the very first piece of gush. I can't help it. :)
